maybe this heart that refuses to beat with absolution has tried so hard to resist what it wants to say, and by so doing has hurt itself in the process. but this is a heartbreak that knows no guilt, or knows no sadness--the truth is, this is a kind of heartbreak that doesn't recognize tears as its resolution.
i say it breaks my heart because it can never happen. and this, i'm sure of. it's not meant to be. fate, the universe, and the stars simply wouldn't allow it (as if they ever did allow any kind of love to come my way, to be true). but even so, i'm finding myself soaring through alternate dimensions and travelling through spaces tight & tighter still--all because someone i love loves me.
and even if nothing can ever happen, i'm just grateful i didn't go through a lifetime without this love that loves me. i'm not hoping for things to happen though. time will tell how this love continues to take its hold.